Sometimes I think faith is not necessarily knowing something for certain, but believing that one day certainty will come.  Faith looks different at different times of our lives.  Sometimes it means seeing the way you are to go clearly before you, feeling afraid or doubtful, but taking the leap anyway because you know the One Who has your back.  Sometimes it means being on a road where the destination seems fuzzy at best and pointless at worst and seeing darkness and questions surround … yet clinging to the belief that God has led you there, and after much seeking of Him, He just wants you to wait.

For after all, He knows so much better than we do.  He loves us too much to always give us what we want and to work according to our “logic.”  And the truth of the matter is, “In every winter’s heart there is a quivering spring, and behind the veil of each night there is a smiling dawn”(Kahlil Gibran).  It doesn’t last, He is faithful and the journey worth it, and those times of darkness come to have more light the more distance you have from them, and you look back and say “Ah.”  You, O Father, are so faithful, so good.

There are moments that time is frozen and I get a glimpse of the connection between past and present, a perspective that drags me above the seemingly routine of daily life … when I think, “Wow, I realize that I’ve always wanted this, and I’m experiencing it.”  Kind of shocking how we can lose the wonder of the coming together of a life in what we think is mundane.  I had a moment like this today when walking down the steps of the elementary school where I work, as one particular little boy with Down’s made my day today…what a precious little life…he was so cuddly, thought himself quite hilarious even though out of control, giving me kisses (very determined for the lips NOT the cheek), and smiling a smile that can light up the world.

It’s moments like these, even when I’m tired of chasing after him and get tired of routine, that make it worth it and I realize what a blessing it is and how perfectly God placed me in this job, in this place, at this time of my life.  It’s so easy to lose sight of this as we move from one thing to the next without thought.

By:  Amy Fitzwater

How awesome and intelligent is my wife?  (From Travis)